When I thought...

When I thought everything would be happy and blissful,
They are just my empty thoughts.
It was definitely my fault to act without your permission.
And informing you only after the whole act.
I am really sorry.
But it was definitely out of fun.
And not anything.
Why do you have to take it so seriously?
It was not as if I commit a serious crime or I do u wrong that you have to compare my act against those crime and serious punishments.
It was so serious in you that you have to condemn my explanation and all.
You are a magnanimous person in my heart.
But now, you are not anymore.
The whole image just shattered in my heart.
I am heartbroken.
A minor have to be seen as a major.
I really do not understand that.
I apologised.
You rejected it and even wanted more out of that.
Supposedly, you are trying to torture me out of a small matter.
Perhaps, you are having a moody day.
Or was it that you couldn't see how sad am I.
I did not act upon to show it to the world.
I just want to remember you, to love you.
Sometimes it's best to forgive and forget others' mistakes.
It will be better,
Rather than inking it down in your heart and remember it for life.
And you'll be happier this way.
You always have been a fun-loving person.
And you are not, anymore.
I cried in my heart.
Sleepless night.
Only after the thinking becomes too tiring, and I fall asleep.
It was definitely not worth the pain.
You don't see it.
You might think your anger might not affect me.
But it did.
And I hate the way it affect me.
Please, anyone...
Release me from it.


Everything was painted white in my life...
When you came upon it, it turns pink.
And now, everything's black and gloomy.
I want nothing but the pink back.
Is it really that difficult?
Perhaps, it is.
You are still mad.
And it hasn't gone off you.
You couldn't understand.
I couldn't too.
Let me sleep.
For I yearn to forget this whole sad experience.